I feel like a new era is coming and I’m called to follow a new siren song. The last two years have been the most intense of my life, creating this place, materializing my vision.
Every day having to show up- no matter what was playing out in my internal state, with no space for breaks or time out. After experiencing near burn out and an enduring lack of joy or libido for life, I realized I was drowning in endless duties that weren’t aligned with my bliss or even my skill set. It was time to make a Sankalpa Shakti, an unwavering commitment to cut back and realign.
With a huge amount of gratitude and pride I now finally feel I am near the stage when I can step back a little. Certainly from the day to day operations of this magical centre. The gratitude is for the amazing job my incredible staff team, Ania and our beautiful teachers do to keep this place running at the standard that my vision dictates. The pride is that I could wrestle with my own perfectionism and fear enough to step back and trust others with the space to manage things without me. My nervous system is slowly settling, I can calmly breath. I’m falling in love with teaching again. I’m returning to a passionate relationship with my studies, and I have some wonderful trainings where I can be student, coming up on the horizon. I want to go back to my creative roots in textiles and fabrics and start developing a Flowers and Fire Yogawear range. I also long to return to my work in design development with communities of women who don’t have such access to financial resources and co-create a range of wonderful yoga accessories with them. Maybe return to the yogamehndi ladies in India. Maybe start running a Flowers and Fire teacher training program next year.
So much bubbling up in the creative cauldron. Through stepping back and letting go, passion can rise again. So watch this space! There’s some new things brewing!